(Drafts that never got published)
It's three days before April 22nd.
Last night as natty lay sleeping while i rocked her before bed, i held her and just closed my eyes and it happened. All my emotions about that day came. I held her and cried, and cried, and cried......I remembered how two years ago i was holding her brother and we had so much hope. He was coming home......That's what hurts the most i think, the fact that we were supposed to be going home SOON after six months we were going home.
Today April 19, i think about how i was sure joshy would come home. Me and Jonathan were fixing joshy's room and if he would sleep in his room or ours. We were in cloud 9